tomorrow

you know, i will never understand how i got here. to where everything i do seems to backfire. i use to say to myself how ridiculous people can get. doing things that never seemed to make sense. why are they so desperate? well, look who’s desperate now. you know what that makes me?

 

a bloody hypocrite.

 

but it’ll be different now, i’ll make everything right. things are getting better and with some hope, it could be as perfect as i pictured it…

spm is almost over. and so maybe, after this, everything will change.

i hate language

omg. you know, I have no idea how to express my bm exam. like, I answered the wrong thing for novel. THE WRONG THING. for NOVEL. as in 8 marks. GONE. then, my karangan was….okok la. that one memang no hope already.

sigh….then English, was just greatla. I didn’t have enough time to do the paper, so I rushed and wrote a simple story lacking good vocabulary or sophisticated grammer. it was such an odinary essay. the examiner is gonna laugh at my face.

 

SIGH. why la my language subjects like this…..

you know why i don’t blog consistently? do you know why i only blog about frivolous things? It’s cause I can’t blog when I’m sad. when i use to actually feel like blogging. to release the bottled up feelings. that was when I use to blog. now, its just picture after picture and commentary on stuff that doesn’t even matter. i use to like to blog. before, i couldn’t wait to start typing away. when was the last time that happened? i have lost all motivation to do any of this. and bloody hell spm is just so annoying now.

If i can’t blog like i use to that i shouldn’t be blogging at all. if i cannot put in words what i want to say then WHY TRY. what’s the point in pretending that this has purpose. if i can no longer do this properly then, i will delete this blog. and everything in it.

 

its not like any of this matters to me. anyway.

 

 

a hard hit on the head is all it takes. then, what is wrong with me.

if you haven’t seen this on facebook

This is what happens when I feel like taking pictures. 🙂 and no it is not because I was so very free. haha actually I had some homework left and it was probably 1 in the morning. BUT I did have some coffee to help 😛

Its the same teddy bear 🙂 my very special big, fat, adorable teddy bear

This is teddy bear over my head. :):) eh it was very difficult to balance ok and I did it in one take! Which is why this picure is blurrer than the rest.

This is the me and teddy sunglasses picture. 🙂 hehehe you know I actually tried putting on the glasses on the teddy bear ><> but luckily before I broke them I decided to make teddy his own sunglasses. 🙂 so I cut pieces of black paper and coloured them black with markers. I taped them to his eye and TADA 😀 sunglasses. hehe

This is teddy right side up. hehe

Teddy and me with the shocked face.

 

 

 

 

 

Ah, a really really long time ago, me and Lex got bored in class. Then Illy, the initiater of all evil came in. It just so happened I brought my laptop and so we proceded to do this:

 

hahahahahahahaha my webcam has these effects thingi so so so yea 🙂

She cant really control herself…

 

From left: Me (I know right damn lala), Illy and Lex.

Were taking popcorn from her head! hehe 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

My favourite picture 🙂 Zahir and Adzraai. hahahaha why la ya’ll so gay.

to the middle of nowhere

Just like a pill- pink. is a great song. haha I know what you’re thinking and I’m well aware that it’s an old song. But its very nice. T.T

Oh, and the song has given me motivation to run. Literally, just run like anywhere, cause you know how some songs make you feel all up and ready to do anything. So, I think I will do that, but on that running thingi my dad bought. hahahaha.

You know, I’m actually not happy. at all. But talking about happy things has a positive optimism to it so hopefully it will rub off on me soon. or I don’t know what will happen.

Ish. You know, sometimes, like right this instant, I really wished my toy Eurodisney gun was real. And I had something to shoot at. Like cans. -__________- just to blow off some steam.

That reminds me, ethene can be converted to ethanol by hydration, which requires the catalyst phosphoric acid, at 60atm and 200 degrees celcius? Omg, am I right?

 

 

 

 

Oh, and my OTHER English essay was stupid. but…

SO WHAT ? I AM A ROCKSTAR. I GOT MY ROCK MOVES. :D:D

this picture makes me happy inside~~~

tialrs

hm. hm. hm.

I hate trials. I HATE HATE HATE. for the first time in the two years of doing chem/bio/phy exams NEVER have I done so badly! I am not overexagerating ok. I screwed paper 3 of all tests. haha. -__-

OH and I must write more interesting compositions. I don’t know why, but all my essays are really crappy now. I try to make them descriptive….but it doesn’t work. -_______- ish. why la I write like this.

If I fail sejarah, it is not my fault. I cannot be blamed for not doing something impossible. Yea, that’s my reasoning. wahaha. what if i fail o.o

to date.

oh, I am so screwed. But, before that, visit this

http://www.cempaka.edu.my/LIMELIGHT2009/index.html

Limelight, the website thing i run (: its the new layout and it is so freaking AWESOME. WAHAHAHA

It’s pretty right (: please please go read and watch everything there. hehe visit everyday 😀

haha

oh, this is what my week looked like,

ish spm >: \

I bought that gun from Euro disney when i went to Paris and EVERYONE said it was useless. Well then, SEE it came in use after all (: hahaha

hehehe I bet ya’ll didn’t know I wear glasses (:

 

 

 

OH OH guess what I got fro my birthday (: guess guess….

Isn’t it ADORABLE :D:D:D:D:D
hehehehehehehehe I took other pictures that show the whole teddy bear but I look dark – – and ugly. stupid. so I’m only gonna put up partials so that you can roughly guess the size (:

hehehe

see me with glasses. But I look super tanned – –

my teddy bear

i can say that i haven’t been blogging much because i’ve been studying like crazy for trials, but that would have been a lie. alot has happened this month that i really don’t want to talk about. but wait, on saturday i celebrated my birthday (:

you see, i don’t usually blog when i’m sad, unlike most people i can’t be bothered. but this weekend was probably the best weekend by far. EVER. i have never felt so loved, so cherished by friends and family. to all who remembered, thank you, (:

and then, the most wonderful person in the world, yes, he is very wonderful (: , planned the most beautiful day i have ever had. it was sweet, romantic and planned to the very last detail. it was perfect, flawless. nothing went wrong. and he looked hot the whole time. hehe 

oh, it just happens that my birthday coincides with our anniversary. hehe (: why la baby you so smart…

thank you so much (: i love you.

me, big splash and i-movie

 

Alright then, here is the extremely late update on big splash.

Ok, big splash was AWESOME

and I mean seriously, the best freaking thing all year in school. AND HELANGS I-MOVIE GOT FIRST PLACE HAHAHA IN YOUR FACE ADZRAAI.

but then right, we won by a small margin due to technical error. Beruang passed up their work late, so we won. I shall put up the link once the movie is downloaded to youtube. 😀

ok I don’t care if ya’ll don’t like the song la ok. We got BEST SCORE. WAHAHA which means I got a cert. Cause I wrote the song with Penny. Anyway the song was nice. Xin You messed it up. Sorry Xin You. hehe

Oh and we got best actress, Penny (sick mother). Personally, I don’t think anyone in our movie can act -_____- except Wilbur and Illy. But they played minor characters.

Right then, big splash moments.

ok I don’t have the actual jumping in to the pool part before this, but that was because my memory card was full T.T

These 2 pictures were when we did the wave thingi. I wasn’t there. -___- I am not going to say why because it is such a @#$^%$&$ reason.

From left: Shaheila haha why la the only red, Feon-Na, Jia Yin, Xin You, Janice, me, Penny

Eh you know my hair looks exactly the same when its wet/dry -_________- why la?!?!

me and Illy (: both Helang. YEa!! haha

From left, Shannon, Zuly, Joshua o.o, ME hehe, Ee Von, Illy, Xin You, Penny, Wei Shin, Jia Yin

The guys at the back are Form 5’s. They have no body -____- all not-shirted. haha

Aite, actually my amount of photos is quite pathetic la. But I was damn lazy and wet so no mood. hehe

I’ll steal pictures later
(:

school.

So, this post is about what I do in school. (:

Apart from being a very good student *coughcough* I do other stuff. haha

This is my class…

Shu Sim isn’t there. 😦 oh I don’t know why Adzraai was carrying Chen Yee. Chen Yee was like ‘Adzraai, carry me!’ then Adzraai was like, ‘OK!’ hehe

Also, I am the editor-in-chief of this club. And these are my people.

This picture was for the website, but the teacher said it was too dark so we had to retake it. I’m kinda happy we did cause the newer pictures are nicer (:

The actual picture, look how I’m in the middle and we’re all professional. HAHA

Free pose. I love free pose pictures ❤ but then right, I probably should have made myself look taller. 😦

Ok ya’ll can tell I’m just putting stuff up cause I don’t know what to say,

but I will end saying

BATMAN was SOO nice 🙂 I don’t know why people don’t like it. 😦